How to explain the mess? How to cram all those info into my peabrain in time for the exams? So ultra-perplexed & messed up, I can't seem to get down to do anything. What holds in the future? Keeping pretty people relationships seems to be my archilles heel. Will I take on more failures? ( hope no ! ) Will i end up losing myself like some who metamorphosise into incomprehensible personality disorders cranks - you know, like those who so try to act cute and all, such that they actually looked a little like a functional retard? ( oh, spare me! ) Ah well, or perhaps the likelihood of me ending up sucked stuck in my own black hole, and turn into a sorehead grouch is higher... haha. *shrug* whatever...
Well, at least for now, at this point of time, on a good weekday afternoon, there is no need to explain anything to anybody. What's past is gone. Exams is another 3 months down the road (gasp! but.. it's another 3 months), and nobody knows what will happen tomorrow.
Even though i doubt with all my heart, who knows, but i may end up blissful and happy with an adoring, handsome, rich, smart, gallant, gay ( keenly alive and exuberant ! ), thinking yet sentimental gentleman who'll swoon me with love lots everyday.... ( whoa ! *high* ) okie, okie.... that's wild fantasy.......
or... or at most, end up whining days' end and engaging in self-comforts like Sumiko Tan lor... *shrug*
Oh, okie... the future is unthinkable and probably going to be even more insane.. let me just escape into the present.... du-du-la-la-la...
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