Thousand and one things to be done. But don't feel like doing even a single thing.... as if some nerves were wrecked and missing - grouchy, grumpy & blue... ... in need to swing to some Eden new...*
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Monday, February 23, 2009
Little Girl Blue
Thousand and one things to be done. But don't feel like doing even a single thing.... as if some nerves were wrecked and missing - grouchy, grumpy & blue... ... in need to swing to some Eden new...*
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Thursday, February 12, 2009
Sometimes, I just wonder if I am Perversely Unyielding or Persistent Resilience...
"Stubborn and ardent clinging to one's opinion is the best proof of stupidity”
Michel de Montaigne
(French Philosopher and Writer. 1533-1592)
"Time has a way of demonstrating that the most stubborn are the most intelligent”
Yevgeny Yevtushenko
(Russian Poet, b.1933)
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Completing what love is...
With V'day looming near on the 14-Feb, I thought I'll turn advertising script-writer and complete 14 "Love is..." statements. Here goes:
(1) Love is devoted patience... like hong*'s gramp who would travel distances and repeat the same sentences over and again when her grandma cannot hear. Not grunting in impatience.
(2) Love is being supportive in action (even when perplexed).... like beng* not understanding why hong* feels down about not having lunch kakis, and yet drives down from east to west just to be a company and support. Not protesting she is nutsy.
(3) Love is gentle respect... like rich gal Ching* who talks to her less accomplished husband in meekness. Not turning haughty at the least of any achievement.
(4) Love is putting another above my own desires... like I am careful not to be an inconvenience to another. Not harping on extra miles taken. (yes, I am learning & trying to love with concrete action)
(5) Love is forbearance & chivalry... like ALow* walking with his wife to the train station early every morning so that he gets to spend time with her even though that means he will reach work an hour early. Not emphasizing that special efforts was made.
(6) Love is thorough honesty... like TAw* telling his wife every little detail. Not hiding nor seeing the need to.
(7) Love is empathy and anxiousness to protect.... like Auntie Lian*'s husband refusal to let her take care of his grandchildren so that she will not be tired out. Not muttering against another's disability to stretch.
(8) Love is regardless of education & status.... like Dr. Tan* submitting without contempt to the directional instructions of his wife, a high school grad. Not looking at her with disdain.
(9) Love is re-assurance... like XL*'s dad giving his mom a tender touch when she gets emotional. Not suppressing emotions.
(10) Love is sharing lives... like HShan*'s husband who would not cease to tell her of the days' happenings so that she will not miss out. Not having had to be prompted relentlessly.
(11) Love is seeing another happy... like Irene*'s husband surprising her on her birthday even after being wedded for years. Not making a dread out of occassions.
(12) Love is hope... like people who dashes towards shared dreams. Not dashing them for any fear.
(13) Love is missing each other's presence... like the multiple phone calls that hong* gets. Not going on life without missing each other's absence.
(14) Love is being fiercely loyal... like PHo* when he refused to engage in ragging activities that puts him in compromising positions with the girls in the name of fun, even when his girlfriend is nowhere in sight. Not giving a chance or compromising. (yes, i am a prude)
EKH* posed queries to my expections of relationships and love when we talked yesterday... It's not that I have never gone through cogitation. I have thought through it hard too. Whenever the rational water in my brain wins over the emotional fire of the spirits and repossesses the mind, i'll start wondering if i have been building expectations on fancy, floating clouds of fluffy cotton candies...
But those I've listed are nothing out of disney channel. Not inspirations drawn from TCS, TVB, TBS, KBS, Bollywood nor Hollywood scripts. Nothing show biz. All real lives, in real inspiring love. i am not amplifying the actions per se, but considering the love behind the actions that get amplified... and I link it all to 1 Corinthians 13:3 that says "If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."
Really, actions are superficial. I am not about to be dishonest and garb myself with deceptive nobel masks by saying that I do not care for nice gestures. In fact, I do. I do so much so that I identify them with the love that goes with it. It's like, love causes actions, but actions do not correlate to love...
Love is complete not over a gold-plated cover, but a metamorphose into what it is, exactly as written so long ago....
(1) Love is devoted patience... like hong*'s gramp who would travel distances and repeat the same sentences over and again when her grandma cannot hear. Not grunting in impatience.
(2) Love is being supportive in action (even when perplexed).... like beng* not understanding why hong* feels down about not having lunch kakis, and yet drives down from east to west just to be a company and support. Not protesting she is nutsy.
(3) Love is gentle respect... like rich gal Ching* who talks to her less accomplished husband in meekness. Not turning haughty at the least of any achievement.
(4) Love is putting another above my own desires... like I am careful not to be an inconvenience to another. Not harping on extra miles taken. (yes, I am learning & trying to love with concrete action)
(5) Love is forbearance & chivalry... like ALow* walking with his wife to the train station early every morning so that he gets to spend time with her even though that means he will reach work an hour early. Not emphasizing that special efforts was made.
(6) Love is thorough honesty... like TAw* telling his wife every little detail. Not hiding nor seeing the need to.
(7) Love is empathy and anxiousness to protect.... like Auntie Lian*'s husband refusal to let her take care of his grandchildren so that she will not be tired out. Not muttering against another's disability to stretch.
(8) Love is regardless of education & status.... like Dr. Tan* submitting without contempt to the directional instructions of his wife, a high school grad. Not looking at her with disdain.
(9) Love is re-assurance... like XL*'s dad giving his mom a tender touch when she gets emotional. Not suppressing emotions.
(10) Love is sharing lives... like HShan*'s husband who would not cease to tell her of the days' happenings so that she will not miss out. Not having had to be prompted relentlessly.
(11) Love is seeing another happy... like Irene*'s husband surprising her on her birthday even after being wedded for years. Not making a dread out of occassions.
(12) Love is hope... like people who dashes towards shared dreams. Not dashing them for any fear.
(13) Love is missing each other's presence... like the multiple phone calls that hong* gets. Not going on life without missing each other's absence.
(14) Love is being fiercely loyal... like PHo* when he refused to engage in ragging activities that puts him in compromising positions with the girls in the name of fun, even when his girlfriend is nowhere in sight. Not giving a chance or compromising. (yes, i am a prude)
EKH* posed queries to my expections of relationships and love when we talked yesterday... It's not that I have never gone through cogitation. I have thought through it hard too. Whenever the rational water in my brain wins over the emotional fire of the spirits and repossesses the mind, i'll start wondering if i have been building expectations on fancy, floating clouds of fluffy cotton candies...
But those I've listed are nothing out of disney channel. Not inspirations drawn from TCS, TVB, TBS, KBS, Bollywood nor Hollywood scripts. Nothing show biz. All real lives, in real inspiring love. i am not amplifying the actions per se, but considering the love behind the actions that get amplified... and I link it all to 1 Corinthians 13:3 that says "If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."
Really, actions are superficial. I am not about to be dishonest and garb myself with deceptive nobel masks by saying that I do not care for nice gestures. In fact, I do. I do so much so that I identify them with the love that goes with it. It's like, love causes actions, but actions do not correlate to love...
Love is complete not over a gold-plated cover, but a metamorphose into what it is, exactly as written so long ago....
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 Corinthians 13:4~7)
Haha.. i think i am starting to blabber again... anyway, Happy V'day, my friends. To all of you and I, may we immerse in love & bliss everyday of our lives ! I hope someone will provide my cotton candy clouds with enough aerodynamics to float.... someday....
Thomas Trahern
Love is the true means by which the world is enjoyed: our love to others, and others' love to us
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Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Spotted on Merriam-Webster: Obaman
Oba is (an African) king / ruler.
That makes Oba-man his supporter.
How apt!
That makes Oba-man his supporter.
How apt!
Now think of what a supporter of yours might be called if you'd ever have any....
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Monday, February 02, 2009
Escaping to the Present is Sane
So many things so bog me down, I feel that my head cannot surface above the swamp... in fact, even the brain mass seems to be in a whirl-pool.
How to explain the mess? How to cram all those info into my peabrain in time for the exams? So ultra-perplexed & messed up, I can't seem to get down to do anything. What holds in the future? Keeping pretty people relationships seems to be my archilles heel. Will I take on more failures? ( hope no ! ) Will i end up losing myself like some who metamorphosise into incomprehensible personality disorders cranks - you know, like those who so try to act cute and all, such that they actually looked a little like a functional retard? ( oh, spare me! ) Ah well, or perhaps the likelihood of me ending up sucked stuck in my own black hole, and turn into a sorehead grouch is higher... haha. *shrug* whatever...
Well, at least for now, at this point of time, on a good weekday afternoon, there is no need to explain anything to anybody. What's past is gone. Exams is another 3 months down the road (gasp! but.. it's another 3 months), and nobody knows what will happen tomorrow.
Even though i doubt with all my heart, who knows, but i may end up blissful and happy with an adoring, handsome, rich, smart, gallant, gay ( keenly alive and exuberant ! ), thinking yet sentimental gentleman who'll swoon me with love lots everyday.... ( whoa ! *high* ) okie, okie.... that's wild fantasy.......
or... or at most, end up whining days' end and engaging in self-comforts like Sumiko Tan lor... *shrug*
Oh, okie... the future is unthinkable and probably going to be even more insane.. let me just escape into the present.... du-du-la-la-la...
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