As a little child, I'd look forward to mark the last page of the calendar. This page is the most exciting cos it marks the clearing of yet another brain wringing exams and one less to go... okie... that doesn't sound that exciting on hindsight... but getting through those hated exams were measureable milestones then... And so I go, looking forward to each year's end, and to proceed from level primary school, secondary school, to college, and to university - all in the pursuit to be the dough within the (hopefully) better cookie-cutter.
Yes, I admit, I was never that over-achieving aspirant who strive to be sticking out in non-conformity... although somehow, i still ended on the wrong side of the mill and for most times...
Ah well, so there we go again. 01-01. Another new year.
My friends around me are climbing milestones in their lives - chew with new baby adidas, hong with her new life to look forward to with her beng, tan tan, the manager in the making, xilin working to be crowned with the flimsy looking PhD mortar board, etc etc...
and I? I see no milestones in sight (sounds so 徬徨!)... yes.. very much like the economist's chart of today...
Anyway, to start my 01-01-09, X transmitted his devotional lesson #1 to me via MSN. Its essence being: Everything at His time.
未曾清楚神的旨意之前，不要跑得太快
恐怕你跑错路
No milestones in sight, and so be it. Dashing around for a milestone may just end up in naught... like how we sometimes take things into our own hands and think we need to act, when really we don't.... Take time to savour & enjoy each day. Keep the little anxious monkey caged. One step at a time. Surely, in every bulb, there is a flower, and every seed a promised tree awaiting to grow, that you & I cannot see.... there is just no way to force the flower out of the bulb, or the tree out of the apple seed... (that is 盼望, right?)
Ok, Ok. So, let's just pray that I will find myself in a respectable (next-stage) cookie-cutter towards a yummi-licious apple cookie, and not some lump of dough out of the mill near the trash-can....
Gosh! I must be hungry.... talking sprouting no-sense again.... and yes, there is no resolution... as usual...
Just a Happy New Year to all ! =)
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1 comment:
I think "Everything in it's time" makes alot of sense :). Be hopeful!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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