Maybe knowing I don't know is part of getting through...

I thought I did what's right

I thought I had the answers

I thought I chose the surest road

But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight

And told You how to help me

Now just when I have given up

The truth is coming clear

You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

For You know better than I

If this has been a test

I cannot see the reason

But maybe knowing I don't know

Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best

And faith has made it easy

To see the best thing I can do

Is put my trust in You

For you know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

For You know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky

I saw a bird and thought that I could follow

But it was You who taught that bird to fly

If I let You reach me, will You teach me?

For You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

I'll take what answers You supply

You know better than I

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(Better Than I David Campbell Joseph: King of Dreams )

Sitting alone, much thoughts would flood my mind. I wonder if I am getting old, I have too out-of the-world expectations, or that I have always been one who simply ponder things a tad more than it might be necessary. It like.... kneading a small dough of matters and transforming it into a big roti-prata of implications that I soon realise that I am absolutely inapt to digest.... (ok, sounds crappy...anyway...)

Perhaps, really, knowing "I don't know" is part of getting through...

There are time when it seems leading a secular life without concern for the existence of God and His will is easy.... but if we'd behave as if there's no God, we'd better be right....

Then again, the knowledge of a God who has sovereign control is comforting. It gives hope that even not knowing, I'll be able to get through because He knows better than I.... So how do I let go of the need to know "why"? .............and "how"?

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