The Lions may roar, but I guess I am still lack of no good things...

At a really short notice, I was sent packing on my first biz meeting across the Pacific through the last two weekends. Prior to my trip, everyone's asking if I was excited then. Frankly, I was then with mixed mix feelings as I prepare for the trip... Well, there was, of course, some sort of excitement and trepidation at the uncertainties. Then, there was, looming on top, a stormy dark cloud of unhappiness from fellow colleagues who did not think it reasonable at all that I should leave. Seriously, I do not mind the former feelings , but the latter was what affected me most.

Sensing my depressed and despaired mood, I am glad I have yet another group of colleagues & friends who would spend time to hear my grievances. Sometimes, I look back and think if it is right, for I will inevitably turn bitchy and affect their impressions of other parties mentioned in my rant, but to have the channel to pour things out was indeed comforting - at least at that moment. That vent kinda calm me down a little and disallowed me to channel energies in trying to go round in negative circles within.

As there was just two girls being sent out for the meeting this time, the concerns from fellow colleagues was more apparent than usual. We had different colleagues coming up to us with various advices, maps and reminders. Even up till late evening before our departure, we had printed maps, lists of places to go and texts sent our way. Through the trip, the two clueless girls received more tips from emails and texts. Boy, the feeling was endearing ...

I am glad that HShan was my travel companion this time, cos we kinda give each other courage to turn gung-ho and maximise our exposure through the short stint. It helped also that we share the same sweet tooth.

Looking back, even though there was roaring displeasures that haunted me at the advent of my trip, things just turned out fine with the love and concerns showered by many others who cared. Gus & Ting reminded me once more last week that things may get tough, but I still do have people who are concerned. Their very statement was in itself, great pacifying lift to whatever darkness I was feeling then... Thanks, people,

I think I am a blessed gal. Period.

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