Take time to look up

I have always marvelled at the wonders of nature when I am on holidays. The skies overseas always look so enchanting. Actually, I never realised that it is not that bad at home.

I took the picture this morning as I was on my way to work. Look! Actually, our skies are just as nice too. Sometimes, all it takes is to look up and give thanks for the things we have been given... Even though it is a Monday....

Thank God for the new day!

Single 25 Attending a Fairytale Wedding

June 2006 seems to be a good time for weddings. Or is it just time that people my age are getting hitched?

Anyway…

I had the honor of attending a wedding with the… ahem, Hi-Life’s-dream-glam factor last Sunday evening.
How so?

• Wedding held at The Ritz
• Wedding with crowd made up of more tai-tais and white-haired businessmen than I’ve seen – congregated in reality, I mean.
• Wedding attended by guests flown in from overseas
• Wedding of glamorous magnificence and mega-gala factors – where resources didn’t seem like a constrain… (how many people get to have weddings where details such as a jazz singer singing by the grand piano at the ballroom entrance were arranged? Never mind people are more interested in checking each other out then to be enjoying the music.)
• Wedding of a rich boy (and my suspicion is a REALLY rich boy) and a pretty girl blissfully in love
• Wedding where the groom’s father publicly proclaim his family’s love and acceptance towards the newly wedded daughter-in-law
• The beautiful Bride confidently telling mum & dad that they no longer had to worry cos’ she’s going to be well taken care of by a good man
  

Sure, the riches of the family provided for a fairytale wedding function that evening, but I guess it is the planning effort too that came along with the resources that will be etched deeply in the memories of the couple. If you think weddings and no occasions are all that special or important, well, advocates of everyday-living-is-what-matters-most better have darn good memories to remember every of the 21,900 or more important every-days you live thus after the wedding at the end of life. Sure, everyday living is important, but so are the extra efforts that spice special days.

What stuck me most though was not so much the glam & glitz. Rather, it was the bliss the bride was in. How more loved will one feel than to be wedded into a family who declare they will love you? To be married to a husband who “can’t help falling in love with you”, and will promise to stand by you in everything? Such public displays of affection make one hopeful once again that characters like portrayals of Nic Fang’s persona in his columns (plus lotsa wealth) do exists.

If I too, can meet such a man who can feed my romantic ideals and fantasies…. But well, I guess that kind of feelings and connection is cultivated through time. With each passing day, I do concur with what Hong says about the probability percent going exponentially downhill.

But well, like mum said, if the uncle riding an old trishaw featured on the 晚報 can manage to strike it rich on his toto, so who can say what is impossibility? That, coming from a recalcitrant pessimist, I guess, I cannot rebuff, but to resign to hoping for the possible happening of THE DAY…. Well, as K might say, it’s not easy waiting for the appearance of the “golden tortoise* ” for they are probably a tad slow….

##"Golden Tortoise * " defined: The chap high on both the extrinsic & intrinsic worth.

That said, I might just add that simply having a fat wallet do not qualify one to be in the league of The Golden Tortoise... Well, at least in the definition of yours truly....
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Do wires give good EM waves?

See that mess of wires on my work desk? That came together with the LCD monitor that was newly added, supposedly to ease the overly-squinted eyes. Yes. I should be thankful for the welfare, but somehow, I've got problem getting past having my desk in shambles because of wires. Makes me feel cluttered... one time, i thought I should be able to plot some smith graphs and find the relations those wired have with bad fungshui since some experts say that fungshui is the study of EM waves...


Of course, it's probably not right to blame the wires entirely. Lately, work volume has been balloning. Papers are scattered all over in the cube.... hate to admit it, but I do feel out of control sometimes.

Although I am working more than 12 hours daily, I am still holding up my spirit.

Okay, to be honest, there was a time when I felt really shot down. I was and am working the hours, that (I suspect) even my own boss is not working while he is waiting to unload more stuffs.

I was talking to an associate one day and he was surprised at the scope of work I was covering. While looking at the title on my business card, he tried to offer other variations of designation titles that might fit the scope of my work coverage... He also sneered a little in jest when receiving emails from me at unearthly hours.

Then, I wanted to be an escapist. Everything just did not seem to be working out well:

• I do not see why I should be working until my eyes cried foul, tearless and dry, and the contact lens almost dislodge themselves.
• I do not see why I should continue working when the PC battery had gone low and screaming in protest to work.
• I do not see why I should be working too when it's the weekend and it's time to rest.

Well, things are still not working better at the moment. But let's just say I have got my thoughts ironed out. Being put in a challenging position has given me an experience that perhaps some will never have in their stable and defined 9-5 work routine. Instead of wallowing in self-pity and screaming "why?", I guess it helped to keep the spirit just a little higher. Well, afterall, it's good to have a little stretch sometimes. Wherever the limit, it's all in the mind. If I can get past that limit, I will be unfazed no matter what life throws at me thereafter. Things will surely get better... one day.... and it will.

Well, till that day comes, I'm just gotta do my best and gain whatever little experience that will add to build the bulwark of confidence.

To everyone out there who are feeling marginalised or demoralised by work, chins up! What can be too difficult? You may not see it, but there is a gain in all that you are going through... Perhaps, the wire clutter is emitting good EM waves and fungshui... hmmm....
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